QueenOfAllAces

I am not myself today An ichy sweater kind of day could not compare to this The demons inside possessed feeling their claws teeth As a stranger told of your passing I am a wild animal Run Run Throbbing ankles Screaming from the pit of myself Tears Arms of strangers letting go of me Why god Demon in uniform I cannot remember your face

Snowy darkness. We walk for miles hand in hand. We walk, untill we reach, Those that have no eyes. Don't whimper. Don't swallow the bitter pill. Imagine- Alas, nothing! No god now that you're gone, Father. Lure me into the blissful pastlives. Dreaming of some Crystal pleasure, Beneath the streets of Babylon. I don't know How I will die, When I will die, or where. I just know that I will.

I argue. I can't believe that you believe. . . In me, for once. I am unknown. I am a smile on a chilly day, A stain on your curtains in the window, The shadows dancing across the walls at night. I'm sorry. I'm too dangerous. You stare at me. Like I'm some kind of animal. I'm sorry. I don't need your number. I'm falling. I can't remember What I can see. Too many words to forget, Too many sights to see. So I argue again. I argue with you. It builds up inside me. Pounding deep and hard and quick. I argue. It's a dance of words. Before you can break my shell. It's a dance of wars. I'm sorry.

My insides were burnt in the fire Maybe it was years ago Maybe it was yesterday Maybe I will never know I could have been born with it I cry But no tears fall down my cheeks I cry And yet I make no sound I cry My green eyes filled with them But they are so dry I shed all this weight of my back When you glare at me the weight of the world is there When you stare at me something twitches inside of me I know you but I don't It twitches inside of me What was dancing before is Still and quiet What was singing before Is silent My voice comes as a stranger to me A million words and nothing to say I hate everything I say When

Your lips are moving. Only time and space Cease to exist. You're reaching for me. You're talking to me. Defying all laws of physics. 53 years inside a coma. Untill I'm awake discovering you. I long to feel the warmth of your flesh against my skin. But when I reach out all I feel is the cold, hard glass. I wonder if you'd know me If I saw you in heaven. Would you speak my name? All this distance between us would Slowly slip away. And if only for a moment you would Pull me into your arms and Hold me like all the years Between our non-existence Didn't matter. And you're alive; And I'm alive; And we are both 24. And your s

'I love you' you whisper. Why? I still don't know. Your eyes fill with tears as the world stops turning. My ears are ringing, Although it is silent. 'I love you' you whisper. But it's too late. The train doesn't stop. Your face shows no emotion at all. The tears have ceased to fall. 'I forgot where I am!' you're screaming. I'm too terrifyed to move. I feel like shaking you, hitting you But I don't. 'I forgot. . .  I forgot' The whole world stops. My stomach is overturned. My spine is tingling. You start walking backwards. Somewhere, someone screams. A gunshot fires in the distance. I stop. I count backwards from three.

There's something in the way your jaw turns There's something in the way your blue eyes capture mine There's something in the blue eyes crying Like dust blowing in the wind There something in the way you hold me Not with your arms nor your hands But the way your glance holds me Like I'm falling off the edge Into oblivian, and your glare pulls me Back up There's something in the way you kiss Like it's the last time Like there's something shy in the air Like something's about to happen There's something in the way your hands wrap around my eyes There's something innocent in the way you say "Guess who" When there's no one else bu

I'd almost forgotten the sting of the knife Pain caused by just living my own life Nobody ever said Love would be so hard The thing that leaves beauty marred I wish it would all be taken away Just so I would even want to live another day I scream in my sleep and cry when I awake I just hold back my anger until I quake Trying to hide pain and wear a mask Until I have completed my final task Everything else set aside, one last request No more misdirection, my will is out to test I will let my final breathe escape me Spill all my blood just so you can see That I never meant to hurt you like this I want to leave behind a memory no

Bipolar Inferno Go ahead, buy some of that new-fangled burning fluid on the cheap And before casting the first ember, please do let me fall asleep Graciously let me paint the dusty chair you've chosen blue And within my sleeptalking, I dreamt you symphonies Don't forget to lay this euphony down on magnetic ribbon And when I burn, pray bottle and tote my sparks by the dozen Drown me out behind the corncrib, salt away your last bit of petrol And tap raw blood, you'll need every drop to oil the hands of my devils Shot up with yellow confetti and red fire after the show And rapt in my whistlin' like a rusty pump, grow wet from head to t

Vena Labialis A latent center abolishes this filthy law, the deer and kings crestfallen in their awe. Darksome ark hangs above flames. Iconoclast stumbles upon her roseate vesture. Amplified is ravishment for inertia's martyr, propelling impetus through vein. Tumbledown cistern hauntingly out of reach, miasma flows via ruffled channels. Recursion belies his degradation into a vassal, incessantly worn by cockcrow's relief, the murder of shades laving him scarce as sinful. Not born to foster what she squanders, all these cliché-ridden litanies and cambric lariats rain on down, far more than sung forth by languor.